Y’all, it is a huge weekend. I’m doing one thing that I haven’t finished in nicely over a decade, and I’m form of nervous about it. I’m going away for an in a single day journey.
I do know a few of you might be considering, “That’s huge? Actually, Kristi?”
However it’s. It’s big. As y’all know, Matt (should you’re new round right here, Matt is my husband) has M.S., and it has progressed to the purpose that I’ve to do most all the pieces for him. So I spend my days caring for him and dealing on home tasks. And there are issues I’ve to do for him all all through the day, from the second we get up within the morning till I get into mattress to fall asleep at 12:30am every evening.
So the considered truly going away and being away from the home in a single day has not appeared potential in a really very long time. In reality, I haven’t been away from Matt in a single day in nicely over a decade.
The final time I used to be away from him, we nonetheless lived within the rental. I don’t bear in mind the yr precisely, however I had been invited by Rust-Oleum to go to North Carolina (I believe) with a number of different bloggers for a weekend to check out their new merchandise. I used to be so excited for the chance, and we employed an organization known as Visiting Angels to stick with Matt whereas I used to be gone.
Nicely, it was a catastrophe, and that weekend was one of the crucial aggravating issues I’ve ever endured. The corporate despatched a person (as we requested) who as an RN to stick with Matt. We had stuffed out all of their paperwork, went by the entire consumption interview necessities, and had gone over all the pieces we would wish for them to do whereas I used to be gone. A kind of necessities was to feed our canine and take him out at the very least 3 times a day.
All the pieces appeared positive, and the man confirmed up simply was needing to depart for the airport. However someway, the corporate had failed to inform him about our canine, and this man as deathly afraid of huge canines. So I used to be making an attempt to get out the door to move to the airport whereas the one who was supposed to stick with Matt was freaking out about our canine and saying that there’s no method he can keep within the rental with the canine.
I actually don’t bear in mind how that turned out. I’ve blocked it out of my thoughts, I believe. I don’t bear in mind if he labored by his concern, or in the event that they despatched another person, or if our canine went to stick with my mother. It was in all probability that final choice. However evidently, I used to be going to items and utterly freaked out, and that set the tone for the entire weekend, not just for me, but additionally for Matt.
I don’t bear in mind a whole lot of particulars. Once more, I believe I blocked them out. However I do bear in mind getting a frantic cellphone name from Matt in some unspecified time in the future. I don’t bear in mind the issue, however being a number of hours away through aircraft, in a state a number of states away from Texas, and being on a multi-day journey with non plans to return for one more two days, I used to be completely frazzled.
After that horrible expertise, I vowed to by no means try this once more. That’s why I by no means went on running a blog journeys, or went to running a blog conferences. Whereas different bloggers had been touring, being invited by firms to go right here and go there, gathering to community with one another and with firms, I simply stayed house. I turned down each alternative that got here my method as a result of the stress of leaving Matt with another person in a single day simply wasn’t value it to me.
So when my church introduced their first annual ladies’s retreat a few months in the past, I didn’t even give it a thought. My mind simply robotically guidelines out something that requires me to be gone in a single day. In my thoughts, it simply wasn’t a chance.
However after I gave it some thought, and floated the thought to Matt, we determined to see if we might work out the main points in order that I might go. And in the present day is the day! I might be spending tonight away from Matt for the primary time in nicely over a decade.
I’m nervous, however he appears positive. 😀 And because it’s only one evening, my mother might be staying with Matt. Since most of my time away might be within the night and on a Saturday, Matt will truly be fairly low upkeep. She’ll simply should be positive his water cup is stuffed, and he or she’ll have to make him one meal. And Cooper is fairly low upkeep as nicely.
So it is a huge deal. One evening wouldn’t be an enormous deal for most individuals, however in our state of affairs, it’s fairly monumental. I pray all the pieces goes nicely, and my mother and Matt have a peaceable and stress-free 24 hours collectively. But when not, at the very least this time I’ll solely be a one-hour drive away.
So right here’s to new issues, and to stepping out of our consolation zone.
Addicted 2 Adorning is the place I share my DIY and adorning journey as I rework and enhance the 1948 fixer higher that my husband, Matt, and I purchased in 2013. Matt has M.S. and is unable to do bodily work, so I do the vast majority of the work on the home on my own. You’ll be able to be taught extra about me right here.